Slow Burn Lyrics

It begins with a dark glowing ember,
Something black burning it's way out of me.
Searing the flesh,
Pain is the only thing I feel,
Scars all I see.

Oh no the fire's burning my insides again,
What can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Flames consuming reason leaving only ashes left,
You will catch regretting my decision,
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear,
I can't just close my eyes.

I know that it's killing me,
And it's poisoning the best of me,
What I see I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more, tell you more,
About the lies I lead.

That is how I chose to douse the flames in gasoline
Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head
Wreckage from the past haunts me, shakes me on the bone
I know it's over but I can't go home tonight.

But after this I feel as empty as before,
Feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more.
Masochistic, nihilistic, urging backward tonight
My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it.

I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear,
I can't just close my eyes
(my eyes, my eyes, my fucking eyes)

I know that it's killing me,
And it's poisoning the best of me,
But I say, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more, tell you more,
About the lies I lead.

Calling, calling out.
The darkness reaches of my soul are riddled with self-doubt.
Crawling, crawling out,
My will to fight will more than suffice,
While others would lay down.

It's only as dark as you make it.

I know that it's killing me,
And it's poisoning the best of me,
But I say, I don't want to believe.
So let me tell you more, tell you more,
About the lies I lead.