Subconscious Lyrics

On one hand I'm walking
The way that I do
Lookin' like I'm lost in thought
But I'm lookin' for you
It's so subconscious
The way that I feel
Too bad my subconscious life
Is the more real

And I ain't in the best shape
That I've ever been in
But I know where I'm goin'
And it ain't where I've been
I know where I'm goin'
And it ain't where I've been

Some kind of anxiety
Has gotten hold of my heart
And I just wanna run home
When I feel it start
Plastic bottles of water
Sealed windows, forest air
Zillions of cell phones
Beaming through my hair

And I ain't in the best shape
That I've ever been in
But I know where I'm goin'
And it ain't where I've been
I know where I'm goin'
And it ain't where I've been

Tossing and turning
Between sleepless dreams
And I'm poised on the edge of
What it all means
So I turn my back and
I spread my arms wide
And I let myself fall in
Way deep inside

And I ain't in the best shape
That I've ever been in
But I know where I'm goin'
And it ain't where I've been
I know where I'm goin'
And it ain't where I've been