Vaiten Valvoin / I Lay Awake Lyrics

Silently I lay awake beside you,
Watched over you, all whiteness as you slept.

I looked at you, my lovely one, watched a long time.
Dearest, it was long I watched you.

Weeks you spent, years. And you were silent.
You closed your heart, blaming yourself without cause.
You held your fears within you.
You felt the unfairness, bore the burden of it.

My dear, I watched you, felt your pain. It grew darker with me ?
A heavy load on our shoulders. We were silent, powerless.

Pain walked behind you, close at your heels.
In your struggle the pain grew numb.
You, Mercy, granted that life would fade,
That days would end ¬?

You who hide suffering hands, close tearless eyes.
And I hide suffering hands as the light brightens,
Close tearless eyes as it brightens, silently.

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Vaiten valvoin vierelläsi, vaiten
Valvoin valkian unta, unta:

Katsoin kaunokaistani, kauan katsoin kalleintani
Katsoin kaunokaistani, kauan katsoin kalleintani, kauan

Viikot kuljit, vuodet vietit, vaieten
Suljit syömen syytöksillä, syytön
Kätkit pelot povehesi, kätkit
Kannoit kaunan kaulallasi, kauan

Rakas katselin kulkuasi, tunsin tuskasi tummempana
Raskas taakka harteillamme, voimatonna vaikenimme, vaieten

Kipu kulki kannoillasi, kulki
Turtui tuska taistellessa, turtui
Elon annoit armoltasi, annoit
Päästit päivät päättyväiset, päivät

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