1 step forward, 3 steps back Lyrics

Called you on the phone today
Just to ask you how you are
All I did was speak normally
Somehow, I still struck a nerve
You got me fucked up in the head, boy
Never doubted myself so much
Like, am I pretty? Am I fun, boy?
I hate that I gave you power over that kind of stuff

'Cause it's always one step forward and three steps back
I'm the love of your life until I make you mad
It's always one step forward and three steps back
Do you love me, want me, hate me?
Boy, I don't understand
No, I don't understand

And maybe, in some masochistic way
I kinda find it all exciting
Like, which lover will I get today?
Will you walk me to the door or send me home cryin'?

It's one step forward and three steps back
I'm the love of your life until I make you mad
It's always one step forward and three steps back
Do you love me, want me, hate me?
Boy, I don't understand

No, it's back and forward, did I say something wrong?
It's back and forward, going over everything I said
It's back and forward, did I do something wrong?
It's back and forward, maybe this is all your fault instead

It's one step forward and three steps back
And I'd leave you, but the roller-coasters are all I've ever had
Yeah, it's one step forward and three steps back
Do you love me, want me, hate me, boy? I don't understand
No, I don't understand