It's so hard for me to tell you how i feel.and i can never say exactly what i mean.you are my nineveh and i've been jonah from the start.and i can't let you make the same mistakes i've made.if for a moment i could overcome my feari wouldn't have to hide behind this fiction wall.sometimes i wonder how i call myself your friend.a failure to myself.a failure to him.what if i told you.would you reach for him after all.would you fall down to your knees.would you walk away from it all.would you fall down at his feet.and i watch you live in months between the sun.i can't help but feel that i wanted more than this.and still i smile inside and know it's not the end.because the light of hope is brighter than this wall of silence