The Only Way I Could Save Myself Now Is If I Start Firebombing Lyrics

This debilitating cynicism leaves me throwing fists
Blindly, unkindly I deliberately hide so that you can find me.
Unmentionable, the seeking of attention that we require,
And I impede my own libido with a silent fear of fire.
Hold me higher than your loved ones,
Mask my bad intentions.
I wish I was as pure as my lustlessness suggested.

Go fall, I'll hold you back.
Surround myself with your artifacts.
My mind wanders with a sense of urgency.
I watch you fade away from me.

I discreetly try to imbibe the origins of your resentment.
Above me you reside as I strive for mere acceptance.
Escaping dignity, I ruined the pedestals I built,
And bruised by your excuses I characteristically wilt,
Condemned by a guilt that I can't abandon, I lessen to the floor.
I've derobed your more times with my eyes than you have with your paws.