It's OK, I Wouldn't Remember Me Either Lyrics

I don't want to be awake again
I spend my days with my head in my hands
If I go outside I'll fall apart
I am mostly scared by passing time,
The world it seems,
Is more unkind.
Inevitable tragedies will soon be mine.

Oohh, oohh.
I am looking for an easy place,
To mask my thoughts inside my face.
Oh, brown baked column of victory.
Maybe I should just pack up and run away again,
Let you forget
That you were once
My friend
And watch another go on and do better without me
Ooh, oohh.

I could not go away not if I wanted to
I can hide from friends but
I cannot hide from you.
These chemical reactions are dividing me.
Self-deprecating thoughts are interrupting all the time,
Emphasizing all the traits that I wish weren't mine.
They speak louder than everybody
I try to keep my eyes closed as my outlook isn't bright,
Compulsively complaining when I haven't got the right.
I hate the way that I think and act.
I want to end reality but I feel hesitant,
Optimistic that the future will be more concerned than the present,
And so for today I'll remain intact.
Ooh, ohh.
I don't want to be awake again,
I spend my days with my head in my hands.
If I go outside I'll fall apart.