Lose Myself Songtext

von Caskey

I ain't trying to lose myself to this famous shit
I be on one thinking bout' how I really need to change my shit
Look around everything so shallow
Waking up everyday is a battle
Make anybody wanna throw the towel
Yea, not me, looking in the mirror I see
The man right in front of me say I got I T
They try to stop the wave I'm riding til' I'm godspeed
You know the time, you know that all that talk n' shit
Made me work overtime, They wait for it to happen
Me I had to go get mine, I swear my work ethic insane
And I overgrind, So when they hatin' on my accolades
I never mind
People talk shit cause it's way too easy
It's much harder to apply yourself and try to beat me
Yea, so I never ever ever base my happiness on the comments
I'm just working on myself, going harder like I promised
When your fuse getting low, when your smoking so much
And you escape with the dro, when you're spending every night inside a different liquor store, When you're driving on
The highway drunk, and you know, that you know better
That you know yea, that you know better, yea that you know
That you can't escape the places in your mind that you go
I ain't trying to lose myself to this famous shit
I be on one thinking bout' how I really need to change my shit
Seem like all these people so shallow
Everyday waking up everyday is a battle
Make anybody wanna throw the towel
People talk about my life who don't know me
I'ma ball on em, leave my legacy and dip like Kobe (swish)
If you're tryna hold me down, then I'll say you gotta show me
When you startin to get success, everything gets lonely
Can you relate? Not another second I can waste
Some people misinform, thinking that it's only fate
It's more about the way you cooking, than what's on the plate
In my momma crib on the day I lost my pops
Now everyday I live, trying to get the bigger knots
Sometime I be just wandering if shit is really worth it
Most people I know crumbling right underneath the surface
Still give my blood, sweat, and tears
I was broke for some years, I was caught up on them percs
I done bury some of my peers, I done spend a lot of nights
In a room with my fears, I been caught up in oppression
I was blaming my career, But I know better, ya I know better
Ya but you know, that you can't escape the places in your mind
That you go
I ain't trying to lose myself to this famous shit
I be fucked up shawty, thinking how I really need to change my shit Oh look around everything so shallow
Waking up everyday is a battle
Sometimes feel like throwing the towel
But you know you know better, ya you know
That you know you know better, yea that you know better ya
You know, Sometimes feel like throwing in the towel
Sometimes feel like all of ya'll shallow
Sometimes feel like my heart hollow
"I've often said I wish people could realize all their dreams and
Wealth and fame, so they could see that it's not where you're Gonna find your sense of completion"
Uh my accolades is spinning 'round me, The day my father
Passed away, the day that music found me
It's crazy how my darkest times, the ones that have allowed
Me, to free my heart and soul and clear the chains that really Bound me. I use it as a lesson that everything is for reason
Though that reason ain't always clear, I'm searching for meanings in my quiet time, conscious hours, focused on breathing, I just sold a script of oxycontin to someone's demons
I think I'm crazy, think I'm spending time in the clubs and
They need to play me, think I'm fucking up on the scenes that I need to vacate. Wait, there I go again, with that swag flow again
The same shit that makes some fans call me sell out, cause
Shit ain't dope to them, don't think they understand artistry is
About opening your mind to different waves of experiments
And I'm soaking in, all things subject to change
Just don't talk about me like my life purpose was in vain
Like I don't apply pressure to these holes in the game
My creativity at high levels, then what I claim
Know the path to greatness is through humility
Will it be my intelligent ways, verses strength and agility there
Fuck the world and let em' die, honor ability, know that
God put me because I got the will in me, know that my
Purpose here is more than just music
It's about self improvement, this year I'm blowing up and
Having major influence in this shallow fucking rap game
My soul is not contained, within limits of my body
My body is contained within the limitlessness of my soul
One unified field, one unified field, of nothing dancing for no particular reason"