I'm Not Waiting Lyrics

If I start from the beginning
I'll start from when I was achild
And how I grew up always thinking how love it was measured in miles
Because my mother worked that hard so we could have a nice life
Im just hoping that her blood runs in my veins tonight

Cause oh I'm trying to let you go
But it feels right even if I should know
That it won't
And I've seen so much
But I'm not waiting love
I'm not waiting love

Well you know that its backwards when you feel more than you say
And I've been keeping my distance
But don't wanna push you away no
I wouldnt say that i loved you
But im pretty sure that I did
And I wish could say I'm surprised that you chose to walk right back to him

Oh im trying to let you go
But it feels like even if i should knwo that it wont
And ive seen so much