Chaotic Lyrics

I have this paralyzin′ fear that I'll maybe go nowhere
But God forbid me ever admittin′ I could be scared
And I can't stand my friends right now, we got nothin' in common
But bein′ lonely′s worse than just having friends that don't care

You said it looks like I′ve been goin' through hell (hell)
How did you know? How could you tell?
Ask me to explain myself (self)
Well

I′m tryin' my best here to be brutally honest
Nobody said changin′ would be this exhaustin'
A foot on the break 'cause it′s been making me carsick
How could you blame me? Growing up is chaotic

Don′t wanna say it but I really think that I miss him
It might seem stupid but I still look through all of our texts
Who knew that wantin' someone could ever make me this desperate?
Don′t think I'll do that again, and, oh-ooh

You said it looks like I′ve been going through hell (hell)
How did you know? How could you tell?
You asked me to explain myself (self)
Well

I'm tryin′ my best here to be brutally honest
Nobody said changin' would be this exhaustin'
A foot on the break ′cause it′s been making me carsick
How could you blame me? Growing up is chaotic (ah)

And maybe I'm just blowin′ all this shit up in my head
But I can't help it, no, I can′t help it
Foolin' myself thinking that I′ll never love again
Goddamn, I felt it, I really felt it
Maybe I'm just blowin' all this shit up in my head
But I can′t help it, no, I can′t help it
Spendin' too much time on things I know that I′ll forget
But damn I felt it

I'm tryin′ my best here to be brutally honest
Nobody said changin' could be this exhaustin′
Foot on the break 'cause it's making me carsick
How could you blame me?