Kaleidoscope Lyrics

I wake up knowing that you're gone
The letter left inside the drawer
I stare through the window, window

Why would I ever say
Those words I cannot erase?
The look I saw come on your face
Is frozen there each time I blink
It's my kaleidoscope of pain

Why would I ever say
Those words I cannot erase?

I'll never know
If you're ever going to come back home
So I'll give in
To the pain that (?) from within

Why would I ever say
Those words I cannot erase?
Why would I ever say...