Selfdestructive Today Lyrics

Well I think it might be time again
To see if I can still take the abuse
Laziness is what is killing me
'cause now I have the time to fill the holes
But I feel no sadness
In this grown up world I feel self-destructive today

Yes today is the day for something new
To see things I never saw before
But I feel there's nothing left for me
And it's me that will self-destruct again, and again
'cause I feel no sadness
In this grown up world I feel self-destructive today
I wasted all this time
To find the palace of wisdom on the excess road
But I know I can, I know I will get there somehow
'cause I still feel self-destructive today