Amnesia Lyrics

I can see myself tucked in and fast asleep,
Looking all peaceful, but in my dreams I weep.
From far up I'm looking down upon myself,
And I wonder who it is that's lying there.
I feel like in a world all beside myself,
Afraid I won't wake up, with no one there to care.

I know someone used to watch me in my sleep,
But some things seem just impossible to keep.
I fight hard to bring it back into my mind,
But to no use, it all seems to be a blank.
I wonder what it was that had me defined,
But one thing I know: I have myself to thank.

I feel like I have amnesia,
But I know it's myself I've lost.
I wonder what's happened so far,
And what might have been the cost.

I'm not sure I want to know
Any of the things I've done.
I don't know yet where to go,
But I'll accept my past is gone.

I feel like I have amnesia,
And I've missed the heavenly host.
I'm surprised I've come this far,
Living without what I need most.

I don't think I can go back,
To the things that were before.
Though I'm now always wearing black,
I don't bemoan my life of yore.

I wake up and feel like I should be at home,
But I do not know this, it's not where I belong.
My head is dazed and my mind is all confused,
And I'm not quite sure that I'm really there.
But the mirror shows me looking out, bemused,
Into a blank place that could be anywhere.

I feel like I have been left out in the cold,
And it hurts to know that this is all my fault.
I leave this place to find familiar ground,
But the whole world seems to have been rearranged.
Now my former self is nowhere to be found,
And I know that it's myself that's changed.