All That I Have Ever Lost Lyrics

Venturing forth from the safety of my sickened mind
I have found you, a panacea for my sorrow,
With whom close embraced I can greet the morning sun.
It lessens the pain of all those lost and tearful nights,
The bitter awakenings from the cruelty of dreams;
Despite this my heart is not entirely at ease,
For all that I have ever lost is worth less than you-
I failed to hold onto it; what hope of keeping you?

Within the turmoil of this pandemonium
The joy that I feel saddens me all the more,
And the strength that you give weakens me all the more
For knowing you are more than I have ever lost.

And I do not know how much to tell you of this,
Of these insidious thoughts that destroy my peace,
Whether to bare my psyche to your scrutiny,
Trust to the bravery of such an honesty,
Or whether this move will give cause for you to flee
Upon seeing the emptiness and the solitude
That poisons my every waking, sleeping breath,
Altering the perspective through which I see you.

Within the turmoil of this pandemonium
The joy that I feel saddens me all the more,
And the strength that you give weakens me all the more
For knowing you are more than I have ever lost.

And all that I have ever lost whispers to me,
The susurrant voices of jaded memories,
The failures that tug at the fabric of my soul,
Telling me that you are as good as lost to me,
That one such as you is not fated to remain
And that their ranks will soon be swelled in number-
Another voice to join the chorus of regret,
Whose rising melody will sing me to the grave.

Within the turmoil of this pandemonium
The joy that I feel saddens me all the more,
And the strength that you give weakens me all the more
For knowing you are more than I have ever lost.