X-ray Songtext

von John Reuben

Broken reality, there's no means of escape
Broken reality, lookin' to leave this mind-state
But the more that I leave the harder it seems I come back
Now, I'm livin' out these lies that I call my trap

And I call it that 'cuz I didn't do this intentionally
What I now call my trap I used to call my fantasy
And why do I fantasize in order to leave the reality
Of not being able to relate personally or socially

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be respected
But until then I'll dream about bein' accepted
I wonder what it would feel like to be respected

All wrong, no right, no one, no sun, no light
This life, this fight, I'll hide inside, no matter
Where you go, you can't escape what's inside

Man, somebody get me out of this place
Of loneliness, hopelessness, depression and disgrace
At this pace I'm on the verge of self-destruction
With nothin' to go on but my self instruction

So what does that leave me, I try to communicate with the world
But none of you out there could perceive me
So instead of words I began to express through actions
So anger an' rage become my mere satisfaction

Hate fills my being, I'm seeing no means of release
So I escape into my fantasy where I live in peace
Here I can be anybody I want to, here I can be anybody I choose too
Here in this place I feel good, there's no restriction
This place is so good that it's becoming my addiction

I say I'm not lost but why am I searching, I say pain don't fade me
But then again why am I hurtin', I say I won't show emotion but yet
I can't hide these eyes that have been stained by tears
I say I can't be help back but yet I've been in the same place for years

I say I wanna go free but something keeps me bound
I say I wanna go higher but my feet haven't left the ground
Man, I told y'all I didn't care but then again why is my heart so heavy?
I told the world to bring it but deep down I knew I wasn't ready

I said I couldn't be deceived meanwhile I'm walking
Into the same old traps, I said I couldn't be broke
As I watch my world collapse, watch my world collapse

No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside
No matter where I go

No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside
No matter where you go, you can't escape what's inside
No matter where I go