I Know There's a Darkness Lyrics

Portland.oregon.2001

After a few years of white knuckle sobriety…it was beginning to occur to me [with a lot of friends' ‘input']…that perhaps rage wasn't necessarily an asset…and that the only thing that seemed to temper it for me was a handful of pain killers and couple bourbons…i had ridden that particular pony before…and i knew what lay ahead…and yet……

Different take on politics
What it means to you and me
Salvation or a nervous tick
Tourniquet or let it bleed

Hard for me to say
My instincts aren't so sharp these days
I guess I lost my way
My memory just ain't the same

I know there's a darkness
I know there's a darkness and
It's waiting for me there

I can't put my finger on it
Flatline or the faintest pulse
A buzzing bee back in my bonnet
Ecstatic or a tad repulsed

Hard for me to tell
I'm not the man I used to be
I'm feeling pretty well but
The outrage got the best of me

I know there's a darkness
I know there's a darkness and
It's waiting for me there

Head up to my corner market
Try to get my courage up
If I only had a target
Maybe I could fuck shit up

Hard for me to know
I take a pill and then it's gone
I guess it's time to go
I never know what side I'm on

I know there's a darkness
I know there's a darkness and
It's waiting for me there