Substantial Guilt Vs. the Irony of Enjoying Lyrics

And I lay numb, waiting for something worst to happen. sweet innocence, it
Happened so suddenly. she crossed my path on the way to nothingness, I knew
That was encountering an angel of purity and in the process I've quickly
Understood that I don't deserve her, none of us, humans, do. beholding such
A fatality leave you empty with bitter grief. life seem to be tarnished and
Sour, raped in its very essence, but sorrow is rapidly replaced by
Frustration, envy & despair. dressed in white, a child alone, so fragile and
Beautiful has dawn, to hold her close was exhilarating in a most vicious
Way. I felt so weak, yet empowered somehow. one thing leading to another, I
Knew then, that if I could not experience nor possess purity, I would at

Least try to grasp it and choke the life out of it. and I did, oh why, I
Don't know but I did... violently, I've pummelled her face with my bare
Fists till she became awfully deformed, bleeding and dying, all twisted in
Terror... I, I, I have forcefully replaced every missing teeth in her mouth
By razor sharp shards of glass, slowly inserting every piece of glass in the
Little one's gum. why was I laughing? I guess that is my art, to inflict
Upon purity the only thing I can give, and unfortunately it's not love. I
Should've feel guilty, I know, but it simply didn't occur. (As I am unable
To put the knife trough my own flesh anymore...)