I Could've Been Lyrics

You never wanted to see me leave this,
I never wanted to stick around.
And there's a rainstorm in my head
That I just can't out run right now.
I'm faking smiles and stomach aches,
So I can get away...
Sometimes I think that I'm the only one who feels this way.
The only things holding me back are my own thoughts in my head,
And I can't understand why I can't just move on and get past them.
It's probably my own fault, and who's to say I can't fix it?

Or maybe sometimes life just gets in the way.
I thought that with a change of pace,
That I could get the hang of this.
You're just another something that I can't seem to erase.
I thought that with a change of pace,
That things would start to feel okay again.
I guess I'm never gonna learn,
I guess I'm never gonna learn.
I tried to make it to the ending,
Of a book I never read.
I'm relapsing to my old self, trying to skip all these steps.
I'm faking smiles and stomach aches,
When I start to feel trapped...
I never thought that I would lie to the ones who stayed close to me.
I thought that with a change of pace,
That I could get the hang of this.
You're just another something that I can't seem to erase.
I thought that with a change of pace,
That things would start to feel okay again.
I guess I'm never gonna learn,
I guess I'm never gonna learn.
Could you tell I wasn't honest?
I could've been, I could've been...
I couldn't be all that you wanted...
Could you tell I wasn't honest?
I could've been, I could've been...
I couldn't be all that you wanted...
Honest...