With What I See Lyrics

Fight or flight!
Emotions I don't know about
Escaped my world,
The one that fate paved out for me.
Guilt for leaving Mother,
But her ways I can't defend.
She vested herself in him,
For her life I would descend.
Where's he now?

With what I see, the safety of my family.
It was but Mother and me,
Starved of a paternity.
And all I ever wanted
Was a woman by my side,
I think I've finally found her.
With what I see she looks fine to me.

Patiently, I visit home of yesteryears,
The fragile devout lady
And her two-bit mountain sanctuary,
To sate my growing hunger,
To assure her I'm still there.
With what I see, she doesn't even care.

With what I see, the safety of my family.
It was but Mother and me,
Starved of a paternity.
And all I ever wanted
Was a woman by my side,
I think I've finally found her.
With what I see she looks fine to me.

"Awake, quiet now, don't scream.
Put your flowers in her bedpan,
The sheets smell, don't they?
The house smells, your old house,
Clean it, it's not her you smell,
It's not her last breath you breathe,
Quiet now..."

With what I see, the safety of my family.
It was but Mother and me,
Starved of a paternity.
And all I ever wanted
Was a woman by my side,
I think I've finally found her.
With what I see she looks fine to me.