Meaning of Unequipped Lyrics

I realised today I should have invited you with me
Every time I left
Every time I left
Left, I left, I left

I went away with a boy I admired
Then one day on the beach with no harbour
I wept for the water between us
Wept 'cause I keep on leaving
I left, left

I wept, I wept

I'm crazy about a boy
I can't seem to start again
I'm wild about a boy
I've never been so damn ignored

I made a terrible mistake
I can't start again
I'm so hellbent on loving and leaving
All of a sudden there's something
I'm craving for you to make me an honest woman
Make you my honest man
My man, my man