Smking to Dth Lyrics

I'm trying my best and i'm doing less and less and
I know i could have called her
And i know i could be bolder but
I'm thinking less and less and
Been smoking to my death but
Not really just a little
And damn i'm feeling so belittled
Why do you have to be so
Cold and uninviting
You don't think i'm the best but

Don't think i don't detest the
Way you go on and on and
Pretend that nothing's wrong
And
I want a little sister
I have one and i miss her