Detritus (The One They Kept) Songtext

von Cryptopsy

I am in the bathroom
Cowering quivering shaking
Withing my stomach begins an eruption
I am surviving
The bluish liquid spills forth from my mouth the toxic cleanser
Tastes so fine perhaps I'll have to make another
Windshield washer cocktail
Retracting the events which lead me here
To this psych awrd I'm not convinced
But everyone is so confident
That bitch, that cunt, that whore
Did she think I'm an idiot (yes she did)
That I wouldn't find out
A replacement clone of perfection
Had snuck in and took shape
A snake a fiend once friendly
How could that be faked?
My own flesh and blood repelled me
Altered and estranged
Cast me out
That's when I picked up the knife
I shushed her quiet then stabbed her quickly 19 times
I kept my five-year old son
My precious for last
The blade was slippery his sister's blood was everywhere
I made quite the mess you see
That's when it hit me
That realization of what I've done
Searching frantically I couldn't locate the apparatus
To plant it straight into my heart I began to panic
Then shaking sobbing I discovered my liquid hold
Rest eternal by alongside my own
The father daughter and the son
Never apart eternity all together
With none to oppose
I wish I were fucking dead
I should be fucking dead
I'm the monster
I'm the beast
I'm the one who killed his own
But yet somehow I am still free