Not This Lyrics

I've been waiting years and years and years
For a sign
Waiting on a miracle
To get me out of this bed
And you - you took me in
You cleaned me up
And loved me like your son

I began to learn the ways of truth
The truth of grace
How your love could conquer all
I will never know
Cause I'll -
I'll never change
No -
No matter what his word says

I will never ever see your face
Ohh Ohh
I will never walk along
The straight and narrow way
Cause I - I'll never know
What it is
That keeps me alone

And oh my god
I don't know
What it is
But it's not this
It's not this again