Can't Get Loose Lyrics

I see myself but don't see me
Two burning eyes that don't agree
While in the shades there's someone
Following my every little movement from the score

I call a friend who's never there
Too tired for love too tired to care
While in the shade there's someone
Ridiculing every little moment I adore (yeah)

I fold and fall down on a knee
And ask a God that I can't see
If maybe He or She will call on me
The days they pass with no relief
My head all swollen up with grief
Then somethin' awaketh me from sleep

I can't get loose to using you
But that's what I'm a gonna do
Havin' fun in heaven while you're crucified
I can't get loose to using you
But that's what I'm a gonna do
Watching lillie's flower while your hands are tied

Did you just hear what I just heard
Or have I simply gone beserk
Cos in the shades there's someone
Laughing at my whimsical intentions to be free

Two burning minds that don't agree
One praying hoping desperately
While in the shade there's someone
Wallowing in what I know will never happen now (yeah)

I crash and fall down on my knee
And beg a God that I can't see
If maybe He or She will call on me
The days just pass with no relief
My head all swollen up with grief
Then somethin' awaketh me from sleep

I can't get loose to using you
But that's what I'm a gonna do
Havin' fun in heaven while you're crucified
I can't get loose to using you
But that's what I'm a gonna do
Watching lillie's flower while your hands are tied