Handful of Lonliness Lyrics

Will i find a friend, will i find a lover.
No one knows, no one asks, and no one cares.
I've got a new plan now, maybe i can save some pain,
I'm hopeful, with a handful of loneliness.
I don't know what to do, brought up in a world i can't think for myself
I'm ruined, i'm ruined
Stunted personality, raped of my vitality, wasted individuality,
I'm acting so differently.
Will i find a friend. . .

Don't know how to change, but i'd do anything to change myself.
I'm broken, wide open.
All my insecurities bring me to my knees,
Paralyzed melody, i'm singing so helplessly
Will i find a friend. . .